Accepting that which you cannot change relaxes you.
Perhaps, it is because you were wearing yourself out by fighting a battle that wasn’t yours to fight.
Just as you had to walk your path alone, she has to walk her path alone.
I know you want to spare her the pain and suffering you have been through, but it is that pain and suffering that will not only make her stronger, but will take her to the light, save her from the monsters, where she will meet HIM, be saved by HIS Grace, HE will wash away all of her pain and suffering, she will gain the knowledge that you have gained and HE will give her, her purpose and treasures beyond imagination.
You cannot walk her path for her and you cannot spare her the pain and suffering if you want her to be saved by HIS Grace, as you were.
I *get* it. I understand.